Gone A Wandering

gone
a wandering

oh
yes, I have gone a wandering

through
the corners of my mind

its
a daily travel down the path of  this
life traveler

just
another life in time

peering
through windows of time

in
my cobwebbed mind

floating
down the river of memories

trying
to grasp just a few moments

of
each day

I
did not see through the eyes of tomorrow

because
I could not get past today

I
see trails of memories

as
I experienced each

it jumps in and throws itself in the corner

piling
itself with the others

my
how the pile seems to get bigger

 and never shrinking

I
see that I am alone

again,
still

gee,
am I lost? where did everyone go

why
am I alone?

I
hear their laughter, the music

but
I see no one, I am alone

as
far as they can see

the
ear hears nothing

the
heart listens intently to no one there

no
I have not chose to be just like them

I
have chosen to go my way

cut
my own path in the world

I
have not chosen to go it alone

I
was abandoned

I
trod onward and continue to grow

seeking
out this lady that lives with in

not
just the mom and friend

but
the tender woman, soft adventurous

wandering
through the corners of my mind

peering
into windows

to
see if she has come home...

Thank
God for a new chance at life to create change.

this
life in time God granted a child and survival of cancer

may
she (my child) never truly understand

what
my childhood was all about.